Obsession

Obsession is what makes people crazy about. Its good to be obsessed with the reasonable things but what if the fascination is associated with unrighteous deeds? I often hear people reluctant to leave their age old habits reckoning them as being indispensably important to their lives. Smoking and drinking are few of their attributions. But, why was I never obsessed to anything?

I have tried quite a few things in life but never got obsessed with them. I never denied my friends' request to share a puff for, I wanted to mingle with them, to prevent myself being alienated. I even went to the extent of buying cigarettes to ease the pain when life seemed hard and treacherous. This never happened but once while in plus two. May be that my faint heartedness played a part to escape from such an obsession. I tried beers, wines, vodkas, whiskeys everything. I cant forget an incident when the overdose of cocktail made me so wobbly that my eyes were having a tough time focussing on things and I ended up vomiting everything. But, again drinking and smoking have been like the occasional flash-floods: needing to wait for a whole season to come back.

Many men get obsessed with girls. They find it hard, if not impossible, to distance themselves from their shadows. It is understandably reasonable or inevitable considering the feelings associated. I have experienced both love and infatuations. Infatuations occurred a seldom times but love happened just a couple of times. The feeling of being in love was indescribably fascinating. The sweet memory of the time passed together made myself disappear in its aura, burying myself amongst her sweet memories. I could think nothing but finding the ways of making her the happiest among all, prosperous and dignified, to try making her proud of being my girl. But, yet again: that didn't last long. Deliberately, accidental or unpremeditated: the circumstances that led to the conclusion were beyond one's control. Neither she was obsessed nor I was obsessed with her. Nevertheless, the ripped off relation did harm neither to her, nor me.